It's been quite a while since my last post. Just relaxing in my 294' flat which is not really a home, but a temporary place of residence until I can settle on a permanent place to call home. I've been dislodged now for over 2 years, my choice, a good choice so that I could regain dignity and sense of purpose.
Now I find myself understanding where I am, who I am and what I have to offer. I feel somewhat disjointed, but understanding what I should do to move forward from this place. Saving financially, getting somewhat better, and might I say much better than where I was 2 years ago -with nothing financially buffered.
You can't imagine what it feels like to have no savings, no break from the pressure of feeling trapped in a union where little respect is given, and little is gained where trust has been lost, dreams crushed and topsy turvy family events fall apart like a very dry pound cake with poor ingredients and very little moisture. Putting the moisture back requires a commitment to counseling for repairs, stronger reinforcements for rebuilding a bridge back to wholeness -unity. For me not a long ways off for the family, well I can still see things while in motion to wholeness that need tweaking, discussing and bathing in prayer. My desire wants the best, but only time will tell as I regain trust with my eyes not turned from the reality of where things are currently.
How about you? Are you in motion also? In motion to retreat or advance? How's your trust level? Have you adopted forgiveness, utilized forgiveness and exercised trust in order to stay in motion and move past the past? I know the past is hard to forget, but forgiveness makes it easy to move forward...distrust will tend to redirect your focus, so this is the point where YOU must choose. Glad I'm not where I was emotionally, financially and physically 2 years ago -and that's absolutely great! I'm much like you -I must grow, I must put things of the past behind me in order to move forward. I must be transformed by the renewing of my mind, encourage healthy thoughts, healthy progression emotionally, physically and financially. I must not allow the broken places within my heart and spirit to not receive healing, nourishment, love from friends and hopefully -family. This is a pivotal crossroad at the intersection of my life, so that I can stay in motion -not stagnant.
Now I find myself understanding where I am, who I am and what I have to offer. I feel somewhat disjointed, but understanding what I should do to move forward from this place. Saving financially, getting somewhat better, and might I say much better than where I was 2 years ago -with nothing financially buffered.
How about you? Are you in motion also? In motion to retreat or advance? How's your trust level? Have you adopted forgiveness, utilized forgiveness and exercised trust in order to stay in motion and move past the past? I know the past is hard to forget, but forgiveness makes it easy to move forward...distrust will tend to redirect your focus, so this is the point where YOU must choose. Glad I'm not where I was emotionally, financially and physically 2 years ago -and that's absolutely great! I'm much like you -I must grow, I must put things of the past behind me in order to move forward. I must be transformed by the renewing of my mind, encourage healthy thoughts, healthy progression emotionally, physically and financially. I must not allow the broken places within my heart and spirit to not receive healing, nourishment, love from friends and hopefully -family. This is a pivotal crossroad at the intersection of my life, so that I can stay in motion -not stagnant.
